When you know

When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know.

You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round blue
This is how love has found you, now you know what to do.

When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

Happy Birthday Pedro

Pedro was not able to understand what was happening; the place which had been his home for the past nine months was in a kind of a huge turmoil. The usual peace and calm seemed to have changed to some sort of abnormal restlessness; he could feel the jostling and the struggle. It was not long before he sensed that he was actually being forced out of his home. Unable to understand what was happening and why it was happening he closed his eyes and waited for peace to return; but that was not going to happen soon.

With a sudden gush of oddly smelling air, much different and lighter than what he was used to breathe, he felt someone holding his head with one hand and his arms by other and trying to pull him out. Totally amazed by the sudden change of surroundings and surprised by the new things he was able to see, Pedro felt helpless in the hands of a complete stranger. When he opened his eyes he could see a dozen unknown faces and a lady lying on a bed with tears and a smile at the same time on her pink sweaty face. While he was trying to understand what exactly has happened, someone pinched him hard on his stomach. “Ouch!!! My God” he screamed and couldn’t help himself from bursting into tears. While he was crying his lungs out he was surprised to see that his tears brought huge wide smiles on the faces of others.

Apart from the people present in the room, there was someone else smiling high above in the sky. He stared at the little kid and whispered with a grin on his face – Happy Birthday Pedro.

Marley and Me

If you think that this post is anything about the movie, then I'm sorry to disappoint you. Though the movie is the reason that it has been written, I am leaving it upon you to see how and what the movie actually is.

We never had pets. One of the reason being the belief of my father that he wont be able to accommodate one more animal in the house after me and my brother. Now that I am away from my family and maybe would be starting my own in a couple of years, I think whether I would be having one. I have always read, heard and even seen that pets bring a lot of joy and happiness into people's life and somehow manage to disturb the stagnancy which often creeps in monotonous lives. If I would really be ready to have one at some point in my life, is really a point with lot of ambiguity.

The one and only apparent reason which I can see stopping me to take that step would be the fear of loss. Against the advice of wise men, I often get attached to small things; living and non living. And when I loose them, I am not able to get over them for a long period of time. Though I have not experienced a loss of anything "living" till now, but the fact that the loss of a non-breathing object imparts such a pain inside me, really scares the hell out of me when I think about the former kind of loss. I know for sure that it would be heart breaking and maybe remain inside me for a long time. So to be safe and sure, I don't think I would take such a chance ever.

Well, life is a anything but predictable. Who knows one day a post comes up on this blog describing how much fun a pet has brought into my life. As of now, it seems a distant possibility. Whatever future has in store, I would always remember these lines from the movie (not the exact wordings) -

How many people in this world make you feel special? How many make you feel extraordinary? How many of them love you the way you are? A dog doesn't care if you're rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his.

Not so lucky

Well, against my expectations, he didnt show up. I waited for around 1 hour but no one came.

Cannot do anything about it, but yeah - another lesson learnt. Hope I am able to build on this experience.

Oh no!! Not again :(

Well, time and again I have promised myself not to be careless. But I think this particular character trait is permanently engraved inside me. To the series of losses I have incurred, a new was added today morning – My cellphone, Nokia N95.

I went for running in the morning with the phone in my pocket, as I always do and as I am doing for the past many years. I ran for around 40 minutes and returned back home only to realize that the phone is missing from my pocket. I ran back to all the places I expected it to be, but no use; it was gone.

I came back home and tried calling the number. Initially, no one picked up but later some guy picked and asked who is calling? As my Spanish is not good, I was not able to speak to him and soon he hung up. I rushed to office, so that I could make someone from office talk to him. One of my friends called the number again and talked to the guy. Seemingly, the guy is ready to return the phone but wants money in return. He is not asking for much money (around 5 USD) but is insisting to meet only sometime in the evening. He has agreed upon the time and the place – 7PM near my house. To make things more interesting, my phone doesn’t have enough battery and it can switch off anytime during the day.

It is 10 AM right now and I cant wait for the clock to strike 7. I cannot even explain what kind of thoughts are running in my mind right now. Maybe it is Karma; you do wrong and you get wrong in return. But I do not remember doing much wrong in the recent past. Whatever it is, though my mind is telling me to give up the hope and be prepared to buy a new one, my heart is clinging hard to the thin string of expectations that the guy maybe is not as bad as I suppose him to be. Maybe there are still some good people in this world.

I made some promises to myself; about things which I would stick to if I get the phone back. I would like to make them public, so that I won’t forget them soon after I get the phone (if at all I get it)

• I would never carry my phone for running.
• I would stick to the schedule I made a couple of days back and which I am not following due to laziness.
• I would do all the things which I know I should and I am not doing anyways.
• Finally, a promise which I always make to myself – I will start being careful.

Will update the blog in the evening if (or not) I get my phone.